the words tumble in my head
and, swelling in my chest like a balloon
they claw their way up my throat
until i open my mouth
where they die
when they reach the open air.
i’m screaming at myself
my fingernails digging into my palm
my jaw eternally clenched,
afraid.
afraid of the words
that you will likely never hear.
you’re within an arm’s reach
so much of the time
so close to me
only a step away,
a breath away,
from total destruction.
what a sight it would be
for my words to light the room up
like a match to propane.
the moment it strikes
it’s too late
we’re already in flames.
how desperately i long for you.
to burn with you
dancing in a fiery mess.
twin flames in love
without a care
for what burns in our path.
i play such a dangerous game,
keeping my cards close
patiently waiting
for a moment in time
when the words will explode
into the universe.
